1 post tagged “still no baby!”

So I know my loved ones are checking this to see if there are any updates so I thought I would write a little note to all of you....First off thank you so much for all the love, support and well wishes.  I am being 100% honest when I say I am actually feeling pretty good.  I don't dare say great because you know I am massive and it's not comfortable being this big but all things considered I am feeling really good.  Perhaps it's the calm before the storm or maybe it's just a state of mind I don't know but I am thankful for it.  I am feeling better physically and sleeping better than I have in the last 2 months.  Poor Mike says it's like sleeping next to a 300lb man because suddenly I have taken up snoring and apparently quite loud.  He's so nice he doesn't mind he is just happy I am getting good rest but unfortunately for him once he is up he can't go back to sleep so he has been up at like 2:30am and 5am a few mornings and couldn't go back to sleep.

So as of today I am 5 days overdue.  Everyone keeps asking me if I feel like it's coming soon and I don't know I am tired of guessing I have thought so many times something was going to happen and it didn't so I am not going to make predictions any more.  Mike and I have said from jump that we thought she would come on the 21st or 22nd so I will stick with that for now.  I mean I can't be pregnant forever right?  The baby is still moving really good although it's slowed down quite a bit she is moving enough to be healthy.  I am making sure to do my kick counts 10x per hour twice per day but I am very aware of her movements all day because that's the best way to tell if she is healthy and happy inside so it makes me feel better to pay close attention to them. 

I have my next doctors appt on Tuesday but I am thinking about changing it to later in the week.  I know many of you will think I am nuts for saying that but I just don't want to deal with my doctor right now.  She is very pushy and for no good reason the baby is just fine and healthy.  I haven't yet decided I am going to pray about it but I don't think I will go later than Friday so I may change my appt to Friday and hope I go into labor before then.  Obviously I will be paying close attention to Savannah's movements and go in to the hospital if something is wrong but going to the doctors isn't going to do anything she is just going to do a "V" exam and tell me whether or not I am dilating I would have to go into the hospital to be examined any further so I am thinking of doing that.  Not sure yet.  I just need to keep telling my head to get out of the way of what my body knows how to do.  The average pregnancy is 41 1/7 weeks so that's next Wed hopefully I will deliver  by then but we'll just have to wait and see.

I'll keep you posted as to what I decide.  Please keep us in your prayers, I need to not stress over this situation that I have no control over.  I know I am in God's hands and have to keep reminding myself of that!